LIVE-LIE-LIFE

After six years of our journey, our speeches turned so light,

and our heart are always angry, nothing left but just plain sigh...

even i’ve cried and tried and we’ve hit and screamed, you always walked out with the look of grim,

i know you find me sorrow, but you’re the only one who can make me smile...

and you’ll always be my idol, even though i’m the last in your mind....

now that thorns grew in our sight,

i pretended that its alright with the hope that roses will grow between plight,

but you’ve always want to win, even @ things you did with sin,

no matter how bad you are or mean, i hold on ground of promises and words that soon to cringe...

This morning, i’m still awake while moonlight beam on your bed side,

Nothings there but your pillow and your smear smell from last night

I tried calling and calling with messages hoping that you’re alright

to save my struggle in calming my heart and i wonder.. where’s my loved that once loved me at his first sight...

my tears fell like a child losing its mother and @ time like woman losing her mind,

but when the sound of unlocking door, it lift me a smile

though you come home walking to another room leaving me aside..

sweet dreams baby, and have a goodnight... hugs and kisses from your lover that you treated like parasite..

In the morning all you wanted is a ride, that gives you pleasure and hype

and you’ll pushed me away if i cried over some obvious bite..

how can i not seen this part of you that you now called your LIFE?

what should i do now as i’ve lost my pride when you kick me out with a simple BYE?

Is this the LIFE i have to LIVE with the LIE from you i should RELY?

No instance that i wana live my life with sigh,

or filled it with hatred and cry

over your precious life you cant deny

and over my life that you took from “you’re mine”

my stubbornness tells me you can be nice,

my determinations keep asking me to try,

but i should learn to not to open my eyes,

over trivia things and situation as you’re just a guy,

you mean no harm but curious and loves to fly,

with different passenger and i shouldn’t pry..

many years gone and i don’t know why,

i still have the strength to fight and hike...

over mountains so high and river full of spikes

and still believe there are more i need to sacrifice....

maybe i held on too much your line that says.. “you’re mine...”

but thats all i have till you wana rewind.... and stop leaving me behind...

~like a SINGLE lady~